My boobs are huge...
And I'm only 5 weeks pregnant. Or 3 weeks if you count from date of conception... which, come to think of it, would be way more logical to me! It just seems like it is way too soon for me to be feeling ANYthing, yet here I am with gonzo big boobs, so emotional I feel like a cross between a screaming banshee and a weeping willow, and seriously sleepy.
It just seems too early for this!!!!
Of course I tested early. I wish I could remember why I tested so early! There must have been some *thing* that happened or that I thought of, which made me think I should. Because I tested a week before my period was even due, and got this tiny, faint, barely visible line on the test. I told my Charlie that night, "Honey, we have a definite maybe we are pregnant!"
Over the course of the next week I went through *ahem* a dozen or so tests. Errrr... ok, ok, more like six or seven. I kept getting these soft little lines, and thinking to myself... "HcG doubles every 48 hours, so the line should get DARKER, shouldn't it? Shouldn't it?" To make matters even more confusing, the test I had said that if you don't read the results fast enough, you might get a "phantom" line. Which doesn't mean you are pregnant, it just means you waited too long to read the test.
ARGGHH!!!
Finally I went out and bought the EPT Certainty test, the digital one. Peed on the stick and sat there frantically waiting while the little digital screen blinked, blinked, blinked.. PREGNANT.
I mean, I knew before. I knew. But when I saw that, I REALLY knew. And really knowing makes all the difference. I feel so wierd, like I am having these glimpses of the future where this tiny little thing inside of me is a crazy teenager slamming doors in my face. That's wierd, isn't it? To be thinking of something like that this early in?
Maybe I just need more rest...
